It is interesting what or whom, I guess that would be a more accurate word, to remind you of things.  It was brought to my attention tonight, not the first time it has happened, but nonetheless, it was brought to my attention that my life, my being, and my purpose are not at all about me, they are in no way mine.  God gave me life.  God gave me my being.  God gave me a purpose.  So why do I let me get in the way.  Why do I let my emotions, my feelings, my issues get in the way of what God wants me to do.  It is NOT about me.  John 3:30 says "He must increase, but I MUST decrease."  If I am to be the light of Christ and share this light with others, why do I let my personal feelings get in the way.  If someone has hurt me it doesn't matter, share with them still.  It does not matter who it is, family, close friends, anyone.  It doesn't matter how I feel, it is not about me so get over yourself.  GET OVER YOURSELF Alexis.  It is not easy, which is why I still have issues with it when it comes to certain people in my life.  There are people who have hurt me, but you know what, as much as they have, what is worse, for me to have to swallow that and share God with them or to let them leave this earth go to hell and have pain eternally knowing I didn't do anything to try and change their path.  There is nothing that no one could have done that is so bad that I should just watch them walk straight into hell.  Im keeping this personal because I need to know this too.  If you are reading this and you have been hurt by someone and that is hindering you from sharing God and the love of Christ with them just get over yourself.  It isn't easy, but it is necessary.  No one deserves to go to hell without having heard the light of Christ, and for someone to share that light with them who they know they have hurt might just be the best way to reach them.  Well, a brief phone call with my father brought this on, in case anyone was wondering.  I hope that this can help you, whomever it is that I am talking to that is reading this, to get past any similar situation you may be dealing with.  God bless.