Sweat encompasses me

My eyes open once again

In sweat soaked bed sheets

Feeling so very strange

No gun shots, no death

No facing God’s throne

No pain no last breath

Just me in my bed, alone

The despair I’d felt

The glory I had seen

The eternity in hell

I know exactly what it means

My life was a mess

Head first for disaster

I thought to myself

I had encountered the Master

He cared enough to show

The error in my ways

He wanted me to know

I could change, make better days

Could it be what I just saw

The end to all my strife

An encounter with the Lord

One that changed my life

When even I cared not

Got stepped in for me

To show me exactly what

His destiny was for me

 

AGB SEP 2005

Wow.  I dont know what to say.

Psalm 29:11 says:

 

I dont know what to say about this poem. 

Obviously why after a year it remains untitled

 

 

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

We cant hear you speak

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

We cant help you when youre weak

We don’t know the pain you go through

We don’t know how to help you

So turn your mic up turn your mic

We cant hear you speak

 

Turn your mic up Turn your mic up

We cant hear your pain

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

That we might know the strain

And the struggles and the battles you fight

The insomnia and crying late in the night

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

So we can help you be whole again

 

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

There are people who wish to hear

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

There are people who truly care

About the torment and distress you feel

The constant hell to you that is real

Turn your mic up Turn your mic up

We want to empower you against your fears

 

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

We can tell that youre hurting inside

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

And let us know the things you hide

Because of the shame or pride or fear

Or because its been happening for so many years

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

We want to once again hear your smile

 

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

I know that this is your choice

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

We want to be able to rejoice

Because you’ve conquered your pain

And you can now breathe again

Turn your mic up turn your mic up

Please let us hear your voice

 

AGB NOV 2004

 

One thing constant in this life is change

Spring changes to summer sunshine turns to rain

After a period of joy comes a period of pain

One cant be afraid cus it happens again and again

You just learn to embrace the turning of green leaves to brown

And know that not long after a smile there usually comes a frown

And expect the unexpected as life twists and turns

Prepare for the fire as to not get burned

One thing Ive learned is that change is inevitable

Sometimes it sucks sometimes its incredible

Like watching a person enter the room and brighten your day

Or watch you cry as that same person walks away

You cant fight change it comes as it pleases

Just as hurricane winds turn to light breezes

There is always a calm before and after the storm

You just live each day knowing that’s the norm

But as much as I know about change

It still seems to sadden me every time it rains

Or every time a friend walks out of my life

Especially someone with the potential to be a wife

A mother a lover a caring eternal friend

Someone I could see myself with to the end

But according to her theres no need to cry

But I know she lies cus shes scared to say goodbye

She cant bring herself to say those words

And watch our friendship as it blurs

Away into the sunset beyond the horizon

But it doesn’t have to be that way is what im realizing

Just because shes many miles away

And we wont be able to talk everyday

Doesn’t mean we are any less of friends

Its just a test a means to the end

Of something that can still be special and spectacular

But I jus cant see myself running after her

So like I said I embrace the change of this season

And I know God allows this to happen for a reason

So I wont cry when I see her board that plane

I wont let her last memory of me be me screaming out her name

But rather I leave her with thoughts of all that weve shared

All the times we spent all the times she cared

When she didn’t really have to pay attention or spend the time

But all this allows me to know that the kind

Loving person that I came to know

Is a part of my life no matter where she goes

And when she returns we may not be in love together

But we will be a part of each others life forever

In some way shape or form

This girl in my life has become the norm

But like I said change is a part of life

And I’ve come to understand that this type

Of thing is meant to happen to make us strong

And this was going to happen all along

So I look forward to this new chapter in this book

Of my life and I look

To God to help me move on and prepare for new things

And though my heart cries my soul still sings

Of the joy the time we spent brings me

And I know there are a lot of new things to see

So I say goodbye to my dear friend

Actually not goodbye but see ya later till we meet again.

 

AGB AUG 2004

 

AGB SEP 2005

Tears fill my eyes

My fears came true

It was no surprise

The end of my devices I knew

I had been taught young

I knew the word

Heat fills my lungs

My body feels the burn

I cry out

Give me another chance

His presence fades further out

I should have taken a stance

Could have avoided this mess

It was too much I thought

Saw it as stress

As the fight was not worth to be fought

Now here I sit

Encompassed in fire

Feeling every inch of it

I mull over the mire

A wretched shriek

Interrupts my mind

My surroundings so bleak

From the pain my teeth I grind

My flesh burns

With no end in sight

The devil’s angels take turns

Mocking me in my plight

 

AGB SEP 2005

 

AGB SEP 2005

 

AGB SEP 2005